Christmas Melancholy

This will be my second Christmas since my Grandmother died from cancer, and it is affecting me more this year than it did last year. I think it's because I actually hated her for a while after she died because of the way she treated my mother towards the end, and so didn't affect me last year, but time is healing those feelings.

We didn't have the best relationship when I was younger; in fact she despised me almost as much as she despised my father. Thankfully this changed after my uncle intervened and we became closer.

I find myself constantly thinking of her at odd moments and wondering what she would make of the things happening in my life and what advice she would give me.